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For the day I can't feel nothing
My happy needs someone to tell
My sad needs someone to remind
My fragile mind needs someone to break
I feel nothing

The world forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal darkness with the broken mind
Torn letters were floating on the river
Thousands of words don't know where to go
Dissolved in water
Disappeared in someone's heart

-Lavinia Che

My inner world is leading me
To the outer space
Getting out from a room
Getting back my freedom mind
Run through light and dark

Sometime I hold a palm
But I hasty loosen them
Go through crowns and crowns
It seems I'm looking for someone
But I don't know where are thee
Like I don't know Who are thee

My dizzy visual
Let me have a rest
I want to have a deep breathe
A simple breathe
Like thee long for sleep
Like I long for weep


-
25.11.09
Lavinia Che

Saturday, December 5, 2009 at 10:25pm

It's good being lonely on weekend
go to a bar with myself
I dont want to share my seat with every thee
in a good place
I always get drunk before I drink
Candles light up the corners
light up my mind
Show me the road
That I can never get home.

for I couldn't screw out the screws which are so tight
for I hurted myself while I used the hammer
for I couldn't fix the doors of my wardrobe
for I can't handle my housework by myself
for I don't have enough money to find another room where I can see the Moon and sunshine
for all I couldn't and can't
for I'm completely exhausted
I want to destroy my wardrobe
I want to tear my clothes
but, I can only weep
-Lavinia Che

很久沒用Space的功能
感覺有點生疏
最近，就是
“很忙”已經形容不到那種“忙”
“很累”也沒辦法形容到的“累”
到了拼命趕作業的時候
加上這陣子的獨立性
驅使我要完完全全佔有我自己
請原諒我的自私 我不想將自己交出來
我要完全擁抱自己
不會太久
因為我也不會待得很久
所以 我停用了面書 關掉了手機 msn沒有上線
面書對於我來講已經像早午晚餐一樣
我沒有想過在我的account竟然有一天是什麼都沒有上傳的
現在也不止一天了
也沒有想過一整天不開手機
現在也不止一整天了
這一陣子
就讓我暫時佔有自己吧

P.S.
此文章是用Space刊登的
如果你在面書看到是因為它的連結功能
我的面書還是暫停使用中


順帶一提
前兩日打算嘗試系統上停用面書
才發覺取消帳戶的時候
面書會把你和你朋友共同有tag的相片show出來
再跟你說誰誰誰會掛念你
目的想利用你的朋友叫你回頭是岸
感覺同去死無咩分別...
好人性化，我覺得這一點要讚好的!
最後我還是沒有取消帳戶
都說了只是要停用
I'll be back!
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